Now let the letdown begin

I think I am going through attention withdrawl.  Or maybe I just expected too much and when reality hit I got disappointed?  Either way i am bummed out.  From the point I was diagnosed with the alien everything was all about me.  There was so much concern for me, my health, the state of my life it almost became over whelming.  At the peak it was a matter of OMG this thing is huge we have to get it out its on your 10th cranial nerve or the nerve that affects your shoulder you may lose your voice forever you may lose movement in your shoulder time for surgery lets get this thing out to OH wait a minute its attached to a nerve in the back you can go home now that its 24 hours later wow that scar looks great see you in 6 weeks.  That last sentence definitely described how it felt this whole time.  It was bam bam bam bam bam bam one thing right after another that there were times I thought I couldn't breath because things were moving so fast.  And now that the tumor wasn't as life changing everything has come to a complete stop.  In the beginning things were said, people were mobilized, plans were made but now there is barely a whisper.  I don't know.  Maybe I just expected to much of the whole situation.

Ah well I shouldn't complain.  All I got out of this whole tumor business was a droopy eye, a smaller pupil and some numbness...stuff you wouldn't even notice if you weren't looking for it.  I guess I am being too greedy to expect anything.  Maybe I should just go buy my own damn flowers and have them sent with a card saying "Kristina we are so damn happy that you made it through ok and that nothing bad happened to you".

I gotta go, this is bumming me out too much.